one of my doctors told me that this exercise can be comforting for patients undergoing procedures without analgesics, so i figure what the hell. since my procedure doesn't require painkillers (though most patients do opt for them) we're going to try for no painkillers and light sedation/meditation to see how i do.
they told me that i should tell people to send me good thoughts tomorrow, especially around 7:45am EST, since that is when I will be going in for surgery. apparently the simple idea of people caring about you, or the fact that you are thinking of them caring about you, can provide a great deal of comfort and fortitude. Obviously I am a little dubious, but i'm also scared as fuck so i'll take what i can get.
so yeah, 7:45amish tomorrow. me and my kidney would appreciate it.