Tuesday, January 8, 2008

getting cocky

So, hot on the wheels of my successful djing experience last night, I decided it was time to tackle something that I have been living in fear of for months.

Two of my worse shocking experiences were in restaurants, back when I didn't know what was wrong with me (and the frontrunners were either temporal lobe epilepsy or panic attacks. however a clear eeg and my general lack of anxiety over restaurants pretty much nullified those options)

So, this evening I went out with two friends to check out a restaurant in the new (or redone) mall that is somewhat near our apartment, called the Metropolitan Bar and Grill (at the Natick Collection)

Well, firstoff, they were totally accommodating about my food allergy requests and concerns, and while I did opt for a fairly bland turkey burger with roasted garlic and caramelized onions.

So, it wasn't the most daring of steps to take on some levels, but on other levels, I DID IT. I went out to a restaurant, I ate, and I didn't get sick and I didn't get myself sick with anxiety either. So I am pretty psyched. Two big steps in as many days, I'm thrilled.

After the mall, I went to Michael's (the craft store) to pick up some resin and some beads, as I'm going to attempt to make some crafty things and setup an Etsy store in the next few months. While I'm able to get stuff done like spend a few hours in a club, or eat a sandwich without passing out, I'm still nervous about work and my exhaustion levels have been huge. I'm not sure if it is the drugs, the mastocytosis or what.

In other news, I turn 30 in a couple weeks. Not quite where I'd like to be in terms of life accomplishments (as I was hoping to either have moved up in work or been working on grad school stuff by now) but I'll take what I can get. Sure being psyched about eating dinner isn't as prestigeous as getting a kickass score in the GRE, but it's one day at a time.

One thing I'm bummed about though, is that I've gone 3 days without walking. Mostly due to circumstance, but I'm still annoyed. I was walking about 3 miles a day for the past week and I don't want to lose that momentum.


jessica said...

I am so psyched you went out to eat! And ate! :)

Bridget said...

Me too! Seriously, it was a pretty bland meal (i still wanted to play it somewhat safe) but I'm really glad that I did it.